i realize an update is way overdue, but please give me an opportunity to explain myself:
when i first arrived in thailand, i had no idea what to expect and held very few expectations, so as not to be disappointed. nevertheless, i was shocked when i arrived. but it wasn't culture shock that i was experiencing so much as a shock from the lack of (culture) shock. things were too easy. aside from not speaking thai (which isn't a problem here because every thai person knows at least 'nit noi' English), i encountered very few differences. yea, you might have a squatter instead of a toilet sometimes, and you have to get used to constantly being confronted by unique smells...but that's about it. i figured i would get here and be blown away by the difference, so that lack of that experience dealt me somewhat of a blow. i wanted exotic, exciting, inspiring, life changing, adventurous, surreal. but what i was met with was just a more humid version of home.
but about 2 months ago i realized that if change and difference is what i want, then - as cheesy and cliche as this sounds - it has to come from within. i started looking at things differently, embracing more and ignoring less, being creative, learning Thai, bought a motorcycle, and all around just opening myself up to the new potential for new experiences that drove me here in the first place. with this mindshift my world became bigger. and i can truly say that, as it were, i've never been happier in my life. i keep reminding myself that we all get jaded at times, and that's ok, but it's up to ourselves to actively combat such a mindset less it become a lifeset.
so basically, my silence over the last couple of months was merely just a pause in an attempt to sort out my heart and better understand my story so that i could share it with you.
and with that, i leave you with an absurd video from my last teaching experience at a nursing college.
love & bless,
cresa
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5 comments:
you made my day..that video is great!
I wonder if thats what took you from "it's complicated" to "in a relationship"...
You're so crazy. I remember when I met you at 15 you were so much more quiet and reserved. You have definitely come out of your shell.
I'm glad you're choosing to change from within and look at life differently. We all need to do that and we need to continue to do that until the day we die.
You bought a motorcycle!!! That's amazing!! Glad to hear you are exploring this experience to the fullest love. Keep the blogs and silly videos coming.
Good for you, lady - this is inspiring to hear, as I've had to really push myself at times to do the same in Calgary! Traveling to new places makes you realize that location is really what you make of it :)
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